2023 Update

January 27, 2023

2023 Update

Hello fellow internet dwellers! You may not have noticed but my name has changed from Shawtaebaedae to 'A black cat's best friend' to 'Red Head Afro Girl'. I made this change because I feel that my life has recently changed quite drastically to a place where I have to be more adultish and find myself alone trying to push through the sturggles of being a human being, in a body, moving through the world. I often feel like bad luck just roams around me constantly, kinda like I forgot to knock on wood some time ago, OR a black cat is hiding in my shadows. Even my precious crystals feel like a curse at times:/

Regardless, I'm alive and healthy, ready to chat some more. I do want to write some actual article's on some interests i've been indulging in, and I read a really good (and quite popular) book recently that I can't wait to share the review on! Anyways, here are my likes (and dislikes) as of late.

MUSIC

This would just be a particular artists entire discography if i didnt show ANY restraint when writing this so bear with me when I obsess over one song on a crazy level.

Hard to Sleep - Gracie Abrams

Where do I start- the disclaimer at the begining of the music section was for this song and this artist. Gracie has so many wonderful songs that are so specifically unique and vulnerable that I can just sit and feel heard and understood in a powerful way. Anyways, this song in particular discusses the feeling of feeling like the world is a little too much, and you are kinda breaking down inside, you got that feeling 'when you've got something to cry about', and the world seems to be telling you to chill out and let go, but you are alone in this pain and can't stand it. Writing this it sounds crazy, but I've totally felt that kind sadness and external pressure that bleeds into anxiety and perfectionism territory, due to this feeling of being so afraid of doing the wrong thing and being a 'bad' person on this instinctual level. I can't express how much I love this song, just know that I do.

Most Precious lyrics:

That kind of feeling when you've got something to cry about; and all the talking turned to screaming that i couldnlt help; This isn't me, me, me

The One - Jorja Smith

Omg the obsession I have with this song. I think that there is something so beautiful about an artist writing a song that connects with their fans and them so deeply that it becomes an obvious favourite. I think what this song taps into for me, is of really feeling like you constantly need someone to bounce off of and be connected to, but recognizing how easy it is for you to get lost in someone elses rhythym and flow that you disrepect yourself and stop prioritizing you in the way you need to. There are so many lyrics that are amazing in this song, so it is really hard to choose, so bear with me in my choice here.

Most precious lyrics:

Cancellations for conversation I don't need right now; I'm afraid of thee relations I can't be tied down/ When I need someone, I don't want to need no one; I'm not tryna let you in

right where you left me (bonus track) - Taylor Swift

This song is just beautiful. One of the many perks of being a fan of Taylor Swift fan, is getting a really beautifully pictured story in a 3 or 4 minute song. The imagery and powerful storytelling is so beautiful and horrifically sad. I mean, imagine being so in love with someone that you stop time for yourself and wait for them to come back, not knowing if they have moved on, if the world has moved on, when in fact, it has moved on, and everybody just watches you with pity (yeah- it's sad). Didn't really resonate with me on a personal level, but this is definitely a beautifully sad story that has captured my heart (never have I skipped this song- NEVER EVER, it's too good).

Most precious Lyrics:

Trends change, rumours fly through new skies / still sitting in the corner I haunt, cross-legged in the dim light;They said 'what a sad sight'/dust collected on my pinned up hair

Pancakes for Dinner - Lizzie McAlpine

This song just tickles the perfectest part of my soul that is very afraid of rejection, but also really wants people close to me! I mean, I have felt this feelng so many times before it's cray. You want to tell someone how you feel and allow things to blossom and grow but stopping short because vulnerability and 'nakedness' is so so frightening... Thank you Lizzie for this :)

Most Precious Lyrics:

So I'll just say something else, And I wish that you could hear me, When I talk to myself

FASHION

This'll be a collage of my fashion sense right now :)